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Life. It's to complicated. Sometimes i wish someone would just take it all away, I am used to this constant lonliness. I keep letting these memories haunt me. My broken words leave me crawling to anyone who wants to listen. I honestly would sell my soul to let go of the pain. I keep pretending the past is dead, but look at me here I am. All the fear All the pain This can't go on forever.

I hate getting attached to people, it's so pointless. The only people that like me are so plain and typical, i don't fit their mold of a "friend". Except those few people i do find that aren't so typical are my best friends... Except i only have found one person so far.    Fuck relationships. I'm not going to put in all the effort with EVERYTHING and not even get a thank you back in return FUCK YOU. Everyone says i deserve better, which i do. Even people that are your "friends" can see how shitty you treated me. I hope you choke.    I just wish i didn't waste so much time. Everything is blending together and i hate it. I'm losing my will

I don't even know what to say right now, so much has happened. All bad stuff. I Overdosed but i'm ok, My dog died, and my former girlfriend broke up with me. All within the same weekend. Now i'm on antidepressants and now everyone is worried. I hate being like this, especially with how happy i was in the past few months. I know i scared everyone when i almost died but it's not that i wanted to kill myself, i just didn't really want to live. So many emotions have just been sitting with me. They haunt me and i hate it. I can't just tell anyone anything. I can't talk about my bruised and broken heart. I can't cry to anyone about my dog, and i ca